"O God, do not forsake me, until I declare Your strength to this generation, Your power to everyone who is to come." Psalm 71:18
One of my favorite things in life is to look back on a confusing season and see God's working in it: it proves that my God knows me intimately. This weekend was a little rough and tumble for me. But now in retrospect I see God's intimate love all throughout it. He knew what I needed. I needed to see the Patmos ministry and realize that it is not mine anymore. I needed to see the people dear to me, see that they still love me, and say goodbye to them. I needed good teaching and hard work and discipleship again, and then I needed to go home and let them leave. I needed to go on with MY life. And that is what I am doing. And I am excited about it!
I feel a little more like an adult. I feel more freedom. I am grateful that my God knows me intimately. And I am ready to wait a little longer. Slowly, some things are coming together for Indonesia. I am still practicing my Bahasa, and still reading Anak Perdamian. I am still compiling my prayer letter contacts. I am still praying I can go in January...but the Lord will decide that ;)
I'm not at the end of this confusing waiting season, but I have even more faith now that I will look back on it and see God's intimate love for me. I've already seen glimpses. As long as I come out the other end looking more like Him, I will be content. :)
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