It is easy, sometimes, to sit back and wonder...what am I doing here? I work until late at night. I wake up to frosty mornings and go to work outs that test my faith. Sometimes a day feels like a week, with class and challenges, and office hours, and KP, and ministry, and meal times, and Bible studies, and men's and women's group...the schedule can be grueling here. I look at my life, and this is what I see: it is cold here. My family is not here. I lose sleep. I sacrifice and even suffer for students who don't thank me. I am not getting paid. I don't see fruit. Why am I here?
"I was no prophet, nor was I a son of a prophet, but I was a sheepbreeder and a tender of sycamore fruit. Then the Lord took me as I followed the flock." Amos 7:14
"A lion has roared! Who will not fear? The Lord God has spoken! Who can but prophesy?" Amos 3:8
"For thus says the Lord to the house of Israel: 'Seek me and live.'" Amos 5:4
God is faithful to remind me. He called me here. I cannot but help obey Him. I desire life, and that life is only through Him and doing His will. I was a simple girl, no degree, no qualifications, no money. He took me and planted me in a ministry that changes lives!! And He has me writing a book for a Calvary Chapel pastor. I pray fervently in His Spirit that the work won't be of me, but of Him!!
I look at the life of one of my best friends here. He was a rebel. Everyone told him he'd be dead by twenty one. He was a partier who lived life on the edge and nearly killed himself with stupid stunts on a regular basis. God brought him to Patmos, and now he is one of the most passionate men after God that I have ever met! He is going to become a Pastor. Even now when he teaches, he teaches with authority and wisdom. He is twenty years old and one of the most Godly men I have ever met.
The lion has roared. That is why I am here. I can't see right in front of me. I can't always understand why. But my desire, more than anything, is to follow that Lion, even if no one else does-like Lucy in Prince Caspian.
OMG. AWESOME background picture, dahling! Oh yes, I will plan it all out. I've already been thinking of where I'll take you. You will absolutely adore Madison. It is the best city EVER. I love it, which means you will probably love it. :) I have my fav coffee spot, but I need to check out some others. There are tonz here, and I haven't hit them all up yet. But have you ever heard of an orange cappucino? yes...and WHITE coffee? (as in beans?) Yes...so much to do...and we have bikes too. So get ready to scope the town with me on bikes or bus. You will feel like a university grad student by the time you've left. yup yup.
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